small blessings

So, I thought I could get away with not writing until Friday but I've just remembered family are coming round and it's goooood to be social, especially around the times of weddings etc. you never know what bizarre family stories will be revealed. My cousin gets married this weekend and I'm feeling excited & nervous all at the same time, her mum has been gone two years now and I don't know what to expect, I've defiantly lost the child of the family status now everyone is having children, this is a good thing I can be myself and funny to shadow sad moments hopefully. I know she will be there with us, my auntie, I just really hope those who need her most, her daughters and husband can feel her. i really appreciate the cycle of life and how children can bring hope to people who have lost someone, I just hope others passed the time of bringing new life to the world can find comfort in these blessings.


I'm really happy in my new job, there have been occasions where I've thought what the heck am I doing here, why am I in charge of this, but other thoughts have been on my side, I may have had a slow, messy start to the year but the energy in general around feels fairly healthy.
it's so important to hold onto every second, and even though I'm knackered with slight shadows below my eyes there's still chance of a smile..

hope your well who you are.