happy fried

i dreamt about my grandad last night, he passed away about ten years ago.

my friend said this was his way of saying hello, so it wouldn't be scary.

the other week, I went to a photography exhibition with some friends, i may or may have not wrote about the trip already, that's besides the point. in one photograph there was a man sitting on a bus who looked exactly like my grandad but a little younger than the age he passed away, he looked more like he did on my fifth birthday which we have a video of, I have in my head that image of him helping my nan out of the car, the man in the photograph couldn't have been anyone else.

since that trip to the exhibition I think I kinda forgot about it, but last night I had a dream about him, I know I've had one in between these two events but I don't recall what it was.

we walked around a big house with lots of rooms, rooms that reminded me of other people in my families houses, this was our new home, and I remember saying that this is where I'd always imagined we would live, we stood admiring the cosiness of the 'sitting room' and we hugged and he said quite plainly 'you just need a little butterscotch'.



I have had a really lovely night, one of our lecturers suggested we should go to see a film that was showing at a new theatre/art space place. It really helped me to think about things, and the way we communicate with others. Also now I think about it, I had been thinking about her a lot lately I really want to speak to her, I think she's just, I dunno without sounding like a what's the word... suck up, I think she's brilliant - she is a total 'amazon' I really miss her lectures.. I just want to have coffee with her and talk about everything from A - Z until we pass out from talking. You think shed be up for it?

That place has a night on in a couple weeks, a workshop maybe, dedicated to communication, I think it will be really good, I'm going to tell a friend about it, after a massive discussion we had the other week about life technology and people I think it will be one of those things I was talking about that 'clicks'... sorry my mind is fried, but a happy friend, I think, like an egg without the yellow bit.

night