pop your bubbles

why am I so angry, I need to go swimming or go to meditation... or something. I feel short with my patience, I almost got on the train back to Bristol from Cardiff today, I should have thought about it then when we missed the train back to our city. This city feels a little new, or is it me, do I feel new?

someone said to me the other day, I forget who, that a place might not really affect you in anyway until you leave it, this is defiantly true but why can you not have that same love whilst you are there, is it just growing its routes and maybe really it needs pruning to be able to be the best... or something?

i love this new comedy show on telly, its one of those ones where you wish you were friends with the guy running the show. you know... or something

i think maybe i should go to sleep now, you know... or something.

perhaps the reason I feel angry now is because I've been practising being cool headed in frustrating situations, this has achieved some sense of peace, but maybe I just need to say what I'm thinking in future and think about peace in a different way, I think I'd rather feel at peace with myself that I'd said what I believed or at least what everyone including me was thinking.


i did two things this weekend that made me feel like I'd 'gone off the rails' completely, looking back now I can laugh at myself for eating meat sober and taking a drag on a cigarette drunk, because as long as I'm happy with it at the time then that's what matters. i mean gosh, it's not like i committed a crime, unless you count smoking inside a club, just don't tell nouveau casino and it'll be sweet.